Concerned About Pregnancy

A.,
I'm so sorry you're going through this. It stinks!!
I lost my first baby at 10 weeks and it then took us a while to get pregnant again. When we did conceive I was on pins and needles the whole first tri since I never really had typical first tri symptoms (nausea, breast tenderness, etc). I too had a day when I woke up and felt like something was wrong so I went to have my levels checked, then rechecked a few days later. Though I felt like something horrible had happened, the baby was fine. He is now almost 4, his little sister is 19 months old and #3 is due in 3 weeks!
While you wait for Tuesday, keep a good thought and know there is nothing you can do/ could have done to keep this baby. Making yourself crazy with worry does nothing (so keep worrying knowing it doesn't harm the baby (I used to worry about worrying!!) or try to stop worrying knowing it doesn't help). I know it's way easier to say stop worrying than it is to do it but this is out of your hands.
As the previous poster suggested, if you're of the sort, relying on God here might give you some peace of mind.
Know you aren't alone...
J.

Dear A.
You can be sincerely wrong if you go on feelings. Try to talk to your DR personally about your concerns. He may be able to put your mind at ease as your tests are run. This may be a good time for you to commit yourself and the baby to the Lord for His protection over you both. Children come from Him. Pray also for grace to maintain your sanity. It will do no good to worry so calm down and get your mind off of what you think is happening before you get all the facts. I'll be praying for you, dear.

I don't know if you're religious or not, but one thing that always makes me feel better is reading about how we shouldn't waste our worries because everything is in God's hands. I know it can be easier said than done, but in the back of my Bible it says different places to look up different things going on in your life. I've had many worries that I'm atleast able to take a deep breath over and end up not being totally consumed by them. There are so many things that have to happen just perfectly in order for the fetus/baby to survive. Pregnancy is an amazing thing, but very complex. If something goes wrong, it's not over anything you could have done. It's because things didn't happen correctly and your body knows that and so it miscarries the baby. It's totally natural for you to worry since you've had a miscarriage in the past, but worrying isn't going to change anything except for make you stressed out. Leave it in God's hands. If this pregnancy isn't meant to work, maybe the next one will. One thing that's great about our God is that he knows us and knows our needs and he will answer them, even the needs of that baby. Concentrate on that beautiful baby boy you have already, and find peace in knowing that God loves you and will take care of you.

Your anxiety is not helping the situation.
Worry about something that you have no control over or that has not happened only serves to make YOU crazy.
It is time to break a habit which can only be detrimental to your mental health.
When my husband had to travel a lot and I was home with our six children, I had to learn pretty quick that I could not be worried every time he went on a trip because I could not control what happened.
What I did was let it go, and I began praying for those who WERE in control.....the pilots, air controllers, taxi drivers etc.
So then I was able to take care of my children and sleep at night and give thanks each time that he returned home safely.
You are young enough to nip this in the bud and lessen your anxiety and take things as they come.
I wish you the very best.